How exactly do you art? Rather, how exactly do you art well? Never before have I felt so strongly that I will most likely get in my own way. In fact, I think about this so often, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one guilty of this, that I have now decided that I will call it GIMOW. [Move over FOMO...new acronym taking over] I know I'm not the only one that notices when friends or family have a serious case of GIMOW. However, recognizing it in yourself takes time and a whole lot of hindsight.
One aspect of pursuing art full-time that I had not expected are the options. Holy crap there are a ton of options. It all becomes a bit overwhelming. Deciding what wording to use for an artist statement, or what time is the best to post on social media, or how much of your work to reveal, or when are you being too pushy, or when are you not being pushy enough, or which opportunities are right for you, or how do you price something that not only took a huge amount of time but also is part of your heart, or how do you even figure out what kind of artist you even want to be. Aaaaaaaarrrrrrgggghhh! Man. This is intense.
See! So many opportunities to GIMOW. I feel like there are so many moments that I have absolutely no clue whether I made the wrong or right decision, or I said the wrong or right thing. When I had a full-time job with a steady paycheck I didn't stress about this. I just got to work each day, then I finished for the day and got out of my pajamas...uh...I mean just did whatever grabbed my attention that day. There wasn't many moments to second guess myself. Now I'm in a new world. One where each interaction, each decision on what to work on and how to create it, feels like a big decision...sometimes one where it could possibly make me or break me.
All that being said, one symptom of GIMOW that I refuse to succumb to is getting overwhelmed to the point of doing nothing. I will try my best to take all the lessons of humility and regret, and use them to push forward. I may not wind up with the opportunities that I planned or hoped for, but I am determined that I will discover other options that feel like successes too.
Perhaps one day we will have the ability to look at our choices from the outside, until then I hope any cases of GIMOW you may fall into pass you quickly. Do you have a case of GIMOW right now? If you do, get out of the way damn it!